I've always been skirting the idea of changing my look to something I was more comfortable with. Somehow I never got to exactly where I wanted to go. The feelings returned and this time I decided to go for it, and change my wardrobe up some. With my girlfriends help (shopping is her forte), I sought out the styles that suited me and on my trip to New York last weekend I did some shopping and got some pieces for my wardrobe.
Today was my first day back to work since last week and I found myself a little nervous about getting dressed for work. I wondered what my supervisor or co-workers might think when I stepped in. It somehow felt like I was back hom
e in Jamaica where homophobia is very present, though it never affected me before. Still, I wasn't as 'outwardly' gay as 'butch' women appeared. I wasn't trying to appear more gay, I just wanted to be more me.
It was an odd feeling I had this morning, as I'm not used to feelings of uncertainty. However, I couldn't allow myself to not make that step so I donned my garb and went out into the sunshine. At the end of the day, I felt great and not because my supervisor thought I looked sharp, but because I felt like I made another big step in living my life for me.
Thanks also baby for always supporting me with everything.
In with the new
Posted by
Neisha
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
4 comments:
You're most welcome. And I notice you said girlfriends, not girlfriend's. *eyebrow. :P
Thank you for recognizing my shopping talents. I hope you continue to praise them well into the future lol
You DO look SHARP!! I am glad that you made a step in being more comfy in your own skin. That's a huge step and should be celebrated!!
@ baby >>>LOL, no I meant girlfriends lmao *wink. In the future I vow to take your credit card away, IF your spending gets out of control :)
Thanks Becca :). I appreciate that!
lol, we had a discussion about that credit card scene already eh
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